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justduce  Last Online: This week
Single Men Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, PA, Black Hair, Brown Eyes
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 Zip Code:19119
 Age:33, Virgo
 Height:6 ft. 0 in.
 Hair, Eyes:Black, Brown
 Politics:Not quite sure
 Education:Some College
 Income:Didn't Say
 Job:Transportation / Warehousing
 Smoke:Didn't Say
 Has Kids:Yes, not living with me

About Me

Dear Beautiful,

I am sorry.

I want you to know that the way I treated you wasn’t a reflection of you—it was a reflection of me.

When I ignored you, and avoided eye contact. I wasn’t rejecting you; I was protecting myself from being exposed as rejected.

I recognized your beauty, and said nothing. I wanted to tell you, but even more than that, I desperately wanted to show you—to paint you a picture of your true self. But you paint with colors—not dirt.

I thought I was dirt, and I knew that you don’t serve fine wine from a clay pot.

I didn’t make time for you when you needed me to, because I saw no value in my time. I could not fathom being needed.

I withheld my love under the assumption that you had it together, and I didn’t. I felt my love was worthless. I never imagined that I could have been exactly what you needed at that moment.

I did not hold back my sarcastic comments, and hurtful jokes. I wasn’t attacking you; I was protecting myself. I was creating a “safe” distance between us.

My ignorance of your feelings, was a result of not being familiar with my own heart.

The problem with my actions wasn’t you. It took me so many years to figure out that my problem was me—I did not feel worthy.

I lacked the realization that God’s opinion of me defines my worthiness.

If you are still waiting for someone to notice you—to show you your worth—remember that “Mr. Right*” has a lot wrong with him. And that you only have to wait for him as long as he has to wait on himself.

The tough part of life is that you have to wait for the world to recognize the Truth that’s inside of you. In the meantime, you need to know that if men are not treating you the way you want to be treated it is not your responsibility to change that. It because of them. Not because of you.

Your only obligation is to believe the truth about yourself. When that belief is alive in you, everything you have ever wanted will notice.


Want To Find:A woman ages 21 to 37 to date
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